Songs from the New Boom-Boom Room

So I'm still a bit sick, but definitely feeling a lot better than the other day. I still have a cough and I'm hating it. Anyway, I got a nice surprise when I woke up a while ago when I saw that the mail I was waiting for was finally delivered to me!

Note that they wrote Las Piatas City intead of Las Piñas City! Haha! Anyway, the mail came from a music shop somewhere in UK where I ordered 2 music sheets of my current favorite Swingle Singers tracks:

Drop me some well-wishes please. They would definitely cheer me up. :)

First, a question: How do you deal with a misunderstanding with someone in your family, or say with a good friend? Note that this someone has a good track record, meaning, he/she had been nothing but nice. What do you do?

Tell me if I'm wrong, but isn't it proper to try and calmly talk to the person in question, verify everything and see if there really is a good reason to get mad at him/her? And even if you do find him/her making a mistake, does it give you any right to spew angry and degrading words, even when the person is asking for apology, and trying to explain everything that lead to the event that you are having problems with? And again, he/she is part of the family. Or maybe a good friend. Would you do that?

I can't. Because familial relationship or friendship matters to me. I will talk to the person without any judgment. Verify everything. Weigh things. See if he/she has good enough reason about the event. Because once I see any sense to why it happened, I will start to understand. And I will start to think of a resolution that would work for the both of us. Because more than anything else, the bond that we have is more important than a petty misunderstanding.

But I can only be myself. I cannot be you or any other person. And true enough, what happened was the complete opposite. Hateful words thrown, making threats, spreading the whole misunderstanding like it's the most important news when it can be easily settled. All that FRIGGIN' jazz! It's like getting a grade of A for MudSling101.

How can people just accuse someone and not hear him/her reason out? How can people easily jump in the bandwagon without knowing the real deal? And how can people be such very good backstabbers? 

It's INJUSTICE written all over. And it cuts deep. Very, very deep. Because you guys are family. You guys are friends. Or so I thought.

Nobody deserves this bullshit. I wouldn't even wish it to my worst enemy. I'm all for fairness. 

The gap is big. But in between lies a great amount of love and care only our hearts would ever decipher. I feel it to be so.

Sometimes, I hate the feeling that we are growing up. Everyday is like a constant reminder that we are getting old. Not that I mind aging physically. It's just that everything is getting more complex. The older you get, the more responsibilities you have.

Responsibilities. It's my responsibility to give back to my family (even if they are saying that it isn't). It's my responsibility to be a good friend to others. It's my responsibility to be a good citizen. It's my responsibility to do something with my life.

My life. What is happening with my life? Am I fulfilled? Satisfied? Maybe in some aspects, yes. But I know I am lacking. I'm lacking because I know what I want, and I still don't have it. I'm trying to get there. I'm doing it at my own pace. I just don't know if my pace is good enough. Lots of decisions to be made.

Decisions. Major ones. I know I'm gonna make one eventually. Soon. But the sacrifice will also be major. It might even compromise that one satisfied aspect in my life.

I want to be a kid again.