carlski (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} carlski) wrote,@ 2008-07-16 06:25:00 |
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DECISIONS, DECISIONS...
*HUGE SIGH*
*HUGE SIGH*
Sometimes, I hate the feeling that we are growing up. Everyday is like a constant reminder that we are getting old. Not that I mind aging physically. It's just that everything is getting more complex. The older you get, the more responsibilities you have.
Responsibilities. It's my responsibility to give back to my family (even if they are saying that it isn't). It's my responsibility to be a good friend to others. It's my responsibility to be a good citizen. It's my responsibility to do something with my life.
My life. What is happening with my life? Am I fulfilled? Satisfied? Maybe in some aspects, yes. But I know I am lacking. I'm lacking because I know what I want, and I still don't have it. I'm trying to get there. I'm doing it at my own pace. I just don't know if my pace is good enough. Lots of decisions to be made.
Decisions. Major ones. I know I'm gonna make one eventually. Soon. But the sacrifice will also be major. It might even compromise that one satisfied aspect in my life.
I want to be a kid again.
